Let it all out.

When traumatic events happen we deal with them in whatever style we use & then get on with life thinking it's done & dusted. Then something will happen & out of the blue there will be tears streaming down your face because it's far from over, it's just buried in that secret place that we store the bad stuff. This has happened to me the last 2 meetings at church when debt has been talked about. You see, amost 8 years ago debt fell on my family in a big way. It was my father & in trying to set up his own company things went very, very badly wrong & we almost lost him. I wont go into the fine details because I don't feel it's appropriate but please don't think for a minute that it's out of shame it's purely because it's not my place. My point is that there is no need to feel shame this only adds to the isolation & going it alone is the worst thing you can do. So I've learnt that we really need to work through things in the first place & not to just put a brave face on things. The one thing that I have now that I didn't have 8 years ago is faith. I'm going to pray into the issues that are locked away & I know I never have to walk this life alone again.

 Esther xx